so, do u like fat guys with no money ??

holidays..n when i have nuthing to do, i started to think about things that i shouldnt be thinking n i ended up question everything..n lately ive been thinking bout my degree life in shah alam.


i know some ppl might be thinking n wondering y am i being such a lone ranger now in degree 4 d past 2 semesters in my batch n in class?

i'd rather be alone..seriously.its not that i dont like my classmates(some of them maybe),but i choose to be alone.bila dh sorg2 neh x la kita nk depend sgt kt org so xpayah nk menyusahkan org.x dak kwn rapat kt class pon xpa janji,kita xdak musuh n ok dgn smua org dlm class tu.i hate 'drama'.even sesama kwn rpt dlm class tu pon leh gado n ada krisis dalaman.n kdg2 berpuak2 plak.so its better 4 me to be alone than having myself involve in such 'drama'.n i feel free n comfortable to move around by myself..eventhough i feel very sunyiiii,borinkk n pathetic sumtimes but its ok.study is more important.n i still have my own bestfriends n close friends there in shah alam.

there r some people have told me to just pretend n wat2 mcm leh in,masok n ikot ja mana2 group of friends in my class,like just be around them,follow them wherever they go,like things they like to do, n pretend to like them but deep inside u just dun wanna be around them. i hate being a pretender..n im not good at it.i hate pretending myself to be such a really nice gurl towards everyone just to be 'in' with every group of people.thats just not me.im not hypocrites.i dont want to be trampled and stepped over,back stabbed,ditindas n dipijak,cpt mengalah,senyum,and pretend like i dont know anything..dets fake.yes i admit that im not smart n pretty n the best gurl of the social scene.n yes i can be so quite n i can be so loud when im with different group of people.but wutever it is,im just being myself.
but heck u have to be in my shoes to know what i was facing then, n now.

if i always skip my classes, thats MY problem.

if im lazy to go to class n i didn't go to class, thats MY problem.

its funny n pelik how some people can be very judgemental just bcuz i always didn't go to class n its like im the only one who didn't go to class.konon2 mcm depa nk amek berat n concern sgt la n risau but actually they dont.n if they really are,i appreciated it but its ok anyway.i can handle myself.its my life.u people no need to worry about me especially to those who r not close to me.

'tak mati pon kalau p class sorang2,kt class sorang2,n balik class pon sorang2'

maybe ada hikmah smua ni..redha ja la..people can say what they wanna say bout me but they dont know me..i gotta be strong!n im glad n thankful bcuz i still have my BFFs beside me all the time.

i've survived myself 4 the last 2 semesters n i hope det i'll survive too 4 the next 2 semesters.

i dunno y i write diz..its 5.36am but i still cant sleep..n now rasa lega kit bila dh tuleh n luah smua neh.. =)

itolah ia..so the moral of the story are..


"Sometimes you pick your friends, sometimes they pick you."
- (by Steve Klaka)

"Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rare
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere."

yang dikasihi,
-bebi pui-